God is for us.

It's only Wednesday, and this week already has been a rough one for me. 

I won't be one of those people who only blog and tell others about the good stuff, to have that cover of being the "perfectly happy, smiley Mormon girl." 

I've cried a lot these past few weeks. 

I've felt defeated a lot. 

I've felt of giving up on so many different aspects in my life. 

I've felt worthless, unable to continue, and helpless. 

I'm emotionally and physically exhausted. 

And we haven't even started moving into the new house yet. 

(Please send your prayers my way.) 

However, I've began to notice the way my life has changed around me. 

I have friends around me who are talking to me at 11:33 keeping me entertained, distracted, but also reminding me of my worth. 

I have an amazing necklace that shows off all my hard work and dedication that I've done for personal progress around my neck. 

I have the gospel in my life. I have scriptures that have been marked in so so so many times I'm amazed it's still all together and looking good. I have a living prophet and his apostles who have advice and words of comfort that I need within reach. I have the priesthood power in my home, thank you to my father and all those other worthy priesthood holders. 

I have Heavenly Father and Christ rooting for me, they're on my side. They want me to succeed, to endure to the end, and to be able to know that I've done all that I can do and to turn my trust to them. 

I'm not okay, but because of His grace and the power of the atonement, I know I will be in His time. 

Romans 8:31 "What shall we then say to those things? If God be for us, who can be against us?" 

He's on our side. He is always right by us, and he's just a prayer away. 

I challenge you all to read Romans 8 (King James version) and I sincerely hope and pray that you feel Christs love for you, because I know I was filled with it. 

See you in 3 Disney.

Our very last day at Disneyland went by way too fast. We had to check in for our flight at 10:20, so we didn't end up in the park until 11:30. Because we got there so late, it seemed like time sped by quicker. And before I knew it, it was 3:44 and even though I had 7 hours, I felt like everything was going by like a blur. 

We started our day at Tomorrowland. I brought my student council sweater, bought a Thor pin, and was ready to meet Thor for the second time. Then to find out Thor and Captain America weren't even there. I cried. Real tears. That's how much I love the Avengers. 

It's crazy to think about that in the 1960s Disney had "real" mermaids in this little lagoon that now is the finding nemo ride. Man. Let's go back to those days please! 

This freaking storm trooper. I hate him. So we were sitting behind the Jedi Training Academy show, we saw Darth Vader and these storm troopers. So I took this picture, and then he kept walking, right as he's walking back, he jumped at pointed his gun at me. I screamed and jumped 3 feet back. Granted I made everyone around me laugh and made their whole entire day, but my goodness I died. 

This is Lillian. She's cute and she's the one who's most like me. She's going to do great things. And that snaggle tooth smile is pretty cute isn't it. 

I really regret not buying this hat. Also holy dang my hair is getting long!! (You can tell it's almost midnight.) 

I spy with my little eye, the sparkly and beautiful Sleeping Beauty castle. The sad thing is that 2 years ago I thought the castle was huge! But now it's like it's shrunk down in size, it's like the magic is gone, I want to cry because now I'm growing up, and I'm not ready. 

We really like Tower of Terror. It's a really bad addiction. 

Toy Story Mania is my favorite ride. I love it, it's definitely worth the wait, remember that. We got to go twice in a row! 

As the trip came to an end, I realized one thing. This was my last trip to Disneyland before my mission. Granted, we're going to Disney World right before I leave on my mission, but not even Disney World can compete with the memories I have of Disneyland. 

My first time going with my family of 5 people, opening that little present with a princess skirt inside of it and my mom telling me where we're going. My second time going when I was 10 with my grandparents, my grandma's brother and my cousin Dallas. Oh man the pictures from that trip, let's appreciate puberty for a second.

My third time going when I was 13 with my sister Jordyn, and my grandparents once again. 

My fourth time with my entire family for Christmas and my grandparents surprising us at the hotel and me crying when I saw them. That trip is one that I will always look back on. It was the first time for my 2 little sisters. It was when I was going through something, and realized that I wasn't headed in the direction I needed to be headed. 

My fifth time going with all my family, my grandparents and my best friend. All of the giggles, holding hands with my sisters, and staying up way past my bedtime.

I'm going to miss the castle, the feeling of being transported to a place where I belong, the smell of a Disneyland churro, hearing people scream on the rides, seeing little girls light up when they see their favorite princess, but most importantly knowing that Disneyland is my happy place. 

I know I'll be back there soon, but for now I bid farewell to my childhood and teenage years spent at the happiest place on earth. 

Magic Morning

 

We had a magic morning pass for Day 2 of Disney. We got there early, took tons of pictures, and walked on to 2 different rides (which is the greatest thing ever next to sliced bread). That picture was the hardest one to take by the way. 

Isn't she just the cutest little thing you ever did see? She's loving Disneyland. She's always smiling, she's pretty funny to be around, and she thought the birds in the Tiki Room were real right up until the flowers started to sing. 

See she's pretty cute. Here's the story of Alexa. At school she doesn't have friends, she'll bring candy and things to help make friends but everyone she tries to be friends with don't like her. She's having a really tough time, and she's only 8. Before we left, I prayed that I'd be able to help her. Help her feel loved, appreciated, and wanted. I'm really hoping when we go back home, she stays her cute, little, smiley self. 

Everyone always talks about going to Disneyland with their best friend. Well I can check that off my bucket list. Done, deal. 

This was taken on It's a small world. We made fun of it. Enough said. 

After we got off small world my mom texted me a picture of Peter Pan. I literally ran from its a small world to the dumbo ride in .5 seconds. 

He compared our hair. Gingers for life. 

He got mad at me because I'm 17, which means I'm too old. 

Instead of growing up, I need to grow down. 

I pinky promised him that I would stop growing up. (sorry Peter can't keep that promise, but he was just so cute I couldn't say no..) 

We're best friends now. 

You're always walking at Disneyland. So by 9:00 I had already gotten 6,000 steps. The grand total of steps that were taken was; 29,346 which ends up being the equivalent to 12.59 miles. Look at me I'm above average. 

I've ended up walking at least 22 miles in the last 3 days. 

 

Dole Whip is life. Enough said about that subject. 

And so are Ghiradelli Square Sundaes. Heaven in a cup I tell ya. 

The total of rides we went on before 6:00 was; Snow White, Pinocchio, Small World, Carousel, Haunted Mansion, Pirates of the Caribbean (again), Splash Mountain, big thunder mountain rail road twice, Indiana Jones, California screaming, Radiator Springs Racers and the nightmare Ferris wheel. 

Clearly we had way too much just during the day, we needed to come back for the night. 

We came back and did a couple more rides, we did terror of terror twice back to back, California screaming, the nightmare Ferris wheel, and lots of others. 

Selfie featuring the Mickey Mouse Ferris wheel that scared me to death. 

Fantasmic was fantastic. The dragon was killer. However, nothing can get in the middle of my love for Prince Phillip. 

Day 2 was full of magic, laughs, smiles and meeting new people. 

Fun story; my mom met this lady who asked her if we were Mormon and my mom said yes, and she said "oh I know, you guys glow!" This to me is the greatest compliment anyone could give to me. By "glowing" I know that people can see Christ in me. He lives so that other people can see Him through us. 

We're important to this time and age of selfies, likes and followers, and an abundance of blessings. We have to realize that we're here for a reason, and that reason is to invite people to come unto Him, and learn of the truth, his truth. 

I'm really sorry that my Day 2 post took forever, but when you're having fun you get tired easier. 

The last day, day 3 is next!